Monday, January 18, 2010
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
The End of a Decade or the Beginning of a New One
I am really enjoying the end of this decade and have been thinking about what has taken place. And I feel so ready for all the new things that I have been working toward to support the New Year and the next ten years of my life.
I have been focusing on what I want in my life and what I am ready to leave behind. The last ten years began for me with a terrible auto accident that left me and my husband stunned, shaken and weakened for quite a long time. Recovery may still be ungoing due to the effects of tissue damage, sometimes worse than broken bones. The nightmare of that time coincided with a depressing decline in our business and a feeling that we are spinning our wheels and not going anywhere.
As the recovery began I decided that I didn't want to stay in a helpless, victimized position and truly wanted to heal and direct my attention on getting well and moving forward. By just thinking that way I felt myself improve physically and found ways to overcome the effects of my disabled body. My interests ranged from Reiki healing, chiropractic sessions, Adam the DreamHealer, positive thinking, the Hicks who talk about the law of attraction in real life ways, and healing in general. The most helpful of all and I must say the most profound for me was the change that affected my way of thinking. That had to do with the Course in Miracles.
No one told me to read it. No one promoted it. It was truly a gift from spirit or possible my own subconscious that wanted answers. I found myself thinking about the Course in Miracles which I had vaguely seen somewhere or heard somewhere, I know not where. After I located the book, and started reading it-the format is a page or lesson a day-I could see the mental constructs that I was operating from, how some were helpful and some just plain ol dumb. For a year I studied the CIM and for the next three years felt the effects as I began to adjust my thinking to a new reality and understanding of my life.
Of course in between all that was 9/11 and all the ramifications of that turmoil which as citizens of USA we were all engulfed in. Also damaging political policies, lies, and the general malaise and unproductivity of the administration, the secrecy and the unwillingness to move this country forward in an intelligent thoughtful way was frustrating. Here was Christine having her own moments of sheer sanity, clarity and thoughtfulness about a new direction. Here was Christine, a 50 years plus female, a mother, wife, an artist, a teacher, a thinker, having major hissy fits with herself and her life!
I don't know if everyone starts reflecting big time when they turn 50. Maybe some do and some don't. I have always been rather introspective as well as rather emotional about stuff. Learning how to work with my energies has been a revelation. That I can channel my energy in the direction I choose. That I am creating my own reality by my thoughts, my actions, my goals and how I act on them.
So as the decade developed my growth took place but with major growing pains as well. Shedding an old skin can be painful when I don't know what the new one will feel like. Do I really want to give up the old, disfunctional coat for a new one that is untried? Christine being Christine being an adventuresome person has no choice. She goes forward, she figures stuff out, she assesses where she has been and where she wants to go. The planning moves forward. New ways of thinking continue to take place. A realization that I don't have to settle for what doesn't work. That I can be true to myself and be honest with myself even if it is painful. That is a bit of a joke though because the pain is only from not letting go. The pain doesn't need to be there. The pain is disfunctional and only a scab on true emotional, mental and physical growth. Pull it off, let what's teeming under the surface come up, examine it, and see what's under it: the real me that wants to come forward and is coming into herself.
Some teachers say that this is inevitable. That all personal growth will take place throughout time and incarnations. So we are all going into greater and greater awareness. I happen to believe this is true. Whether it is true or not for others, it does seem like the lessons we learn are going to happen and we can't stop them. As long as we are breathing stuff happens and we go through life either kicking, screaming, or enjoying the ride.
I have kicked and screamed for a long time. I have scratched my nails on the blackboard and felt the shiver of discontent many many times. I have also felt extreme happiness, satisfaction, joy, harmony, peace, contentment, and acceptance. I am choosing the smooth ride....that's it: the smooooooooooooth ride! Can you feel it?
So as the decade ends and I reflect on all the things that took place, I am willing to close up that ten years and put a big red bow on it and call it a gift of wonderful knowlege, understanding, that came with a price>the price of leaving it for another reality> the reality of a continuing exploration of a greater expansion of awareness of what my life is really all about.
When I turned 50 I had a conscious thought that I wanted to life 50 more years. Now I am at the +10 after that and I swear it is getting even better. Don't let anyone tell you that life ends at any certain time or age. The jokes may keep coming but life does improve like fine wine, aging and mellow with each year.
I look forward to 2010 and if you are reading this blog I urge you to examine your own year, your own life and create your own 2010. Make your new year the most exciting year of your life. Start by working on a plan for greater happiness. Get rid of what's holding you back from the happiness you deserve. Explore where you have never gone before. You are a wonderful individual with a very specific reason for being on planet earth. Do you know your mission? Are you united with it and purposeful in its expression? Love more and hate less. Let the love in your heart come out more and the anger and frustration become the exception rather than the norm. Allow your self the freedom to be, to see, to live and love the life you deserve(sorry if this is corny!) but it has to be said! Make the next ten years a blueprint for the most incredible decade of your life and watch yourself go there. Take the dare from an aging Polish princess.
I have been focusing on what I want in my life and what I am ready to leave behind. The last ten years began for me with a terrible auto accident that left me and my husband stunned, shaken and weakened for quite a long time. Recovery may still be ungoing due to the effects of tissue damage, sometimes worse than broken bones. The nightmare of that time coincided with a depressing decline in our business and a feeling that we are spinning our wheels and not going anywhere.
As the recovery began I decided that I didn't want to stay in a helpless, victimized position and truly wanted to heal and direct my attention on getting well and moving forward. By just thinking that way I felt myself improve physically and found ways to overcome the effects of my disabled body. My interests ranged from Reiki healing, chiropractic sessions, Adam the DreamHealer, positive thinking, the Hicks who talk about the law of attraction in real life ways, and healing in general. The most helpful of all and I must say the most profound for me was the change that affected my way of thinking. That had to do with the Course in Miracles.
No one told me to read it. No one promoted it. It was truly a gift from spirit or possible my own subconscious that wanted answers. I found myself thinking about the Course in Miracles which I had vaguely seen somewhere or heard somewhere, I know not where. After I located the book, and started reading it-the format is a page or lesson a day-I could see the mental constructs that I was operating from, how some were helpful and some just plain ol dumb. For a year I studied the CIM and for the next three years felt the effects as I began to adjust my thinking to a new reality and understanding of my life.
Of course in between all that was 9/11 and all the ramifications of that turmoil which as citizens of USA we were all engulfed in. Also damaging political policies, lies, and the general malaise and unproductivity of the administration, the secrecy and the unwillingness to move this country forward in an intelligent thoughtful way was frustrating. Here was Christine having her own moments of sheer sanity, clarity and thoughtfulness about a new direction. Here was Christine, a 50 years plus female, a mother, wife, an artist, a teacher, a thinker, having major hissy fits with herself and her life!
I don't know if everyone starts reflecting big time when they turn 50. Maybe some do and some don't. I have always been rather introspective as well as rather emotional about stuff. Learning how to work with my energies has been a revelation. That I can channel my energy in the direction I choose. That I am creating my own reality by my thoughts, my actions, my goals and how I act on them.
So as the decade developed my growth took place but with major growing pains as well. Shedding an old skin can be painful when I don't know what the new one will feel like. Do I really want to give up the old, disfunctional coat for a new one that is untried? Christine being Christine being an adventuresome person has no choice. She goes forward, she figures stuff out, she assesses where she has been and where she wants to go. The planning moves forward. New ways of thinking continue to take place. A realization that I don't have to settle for what doesn't work. That I can be true to myself and be honest with myself even if it is painful. That is a bit of a joke though because the pain is only from not letting go. The pain doesn't need to be there. The pain is disfunctional and only a scab on true emotional, mental and physical growth. Pull it off, let what's teeming under the surface come up, examine it, and see what's under it: the real me that wants to come forward and is coming into herself.
Some teachers say that this is inevitable. That all personal growth will take place throughout time and incarnations. So we are all going into greater and greater awareness. I happen to believe this is true. Whether it is true or not for others, it does seem like the lessons we learn are going to happen and we can't stop them. As long as we are breathing stuff happens and we go through life either kicking, screaming, or enjoying the ride.
I have kicked and screamed for a long time. I have scratched my nails on the blackboard and felt the shiver of discontent many many times. I have also felt extreme happiness, satisfaction, joy, harmony, peace, contentment, and acceptance. I am choosing the smooth ride....that's it: the smooooooooooooth ride! Can you feel it?
So as the decade ends and I reflect on all the things that took place, I am willing to close up that ten years and put a big red bow on it and call it a gift of wonderful knowlege, understanding, that came with a price>the price of leaving it for another reality> the reality of a continuing exploration of a greater expansion of awareness of what my life is really all about.
When I turned 50 I had a conscious thought that I wanted to life 50 more years. Now I am at the +10 after that and I swear it is getting even better. Don't let anyone tell you that life ends at any certain time or age. The jokes may keep coming but life does improve like fine wine, aging and mellow with each year.
I look forward to 2010 and if you are reading this blog I urge you to examine your own year, your own life and create your own 2010. Make your new year the most exciting year of your life. Start by working on a plan for greater happiness. Get rid of what's holding you back from the happiness you deserve. Explore where you have never gone before. You are a wonderful individual with a very specific reason for being on planet earth. Do you know your mission? Are you united with it and purposeful in its expression? Love more and hate less. Let the love in your heart come out more and the anger and frustration become the exception rather than the norm. Allow your self the freedom to be, to see, to live and love the life you deserve(sorry if this is corny!) but it has to be said! Make the next ten years a blueprint for the most incredible decade of your life and watch yourself go there. Take the dare from an aging Polish princess.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Wall Street Jungle
Hey kids, want to learn stuff your stupid parents refuse to learn? Don't waste time trying to learn things from them about the current financial crisis. This game can be over in about 30 minutes and you'll have lots of new facts to tell your friends.
Wall Street Jungle
Come on kids and play this game. You don't have anything better to do now anyways. They have repossessed your TV, computer, car and home. That's the beauty of this game. You can play it in your tent you are now living in. Just spread it out on the dirt floor and learn lots of stuff you never knew before! Adults you can join in too if your brains are still working.
Games pieces 100 moves Begin at space#1: Begin Financial Meltdown
Donkeys End at space#100: Rebuilt Financial Institutions
Elephants
Take turns picking cards to get to the final space on the board. Here are some unique highlights of this game. You can actually win in two moves if you select these two cards:
Execs stop raiding their companies to get salaries greater than their earnings. Go forward 50 spaces.
Government refuses to allow the same people who created the meltdown to fix it. Go forward 50 spaces.
You can also lose big time if you select the following cards:
We got all the money. Go back 50 steps.
Work at Goldman Sachs. Go back 50 steps. Identical cards.
Work at Lehman Brothers. Go back 50 steps. Identical cards.
Bush administration stops laws regulating trading. Go back 50 steps.
Excessively high salary puts company at risk. Go back 50 steps.
You buy futures in oil and cause gas prices to explode. Go back 50 steps. Identical card colors.
To make a profit, you tell the public we are running out of oil. Go back 50 steps. Identical card colors.
Business refuses innovation, no one wants their products. Go back 50 steps. Yellow card.
Banks refuse to loan out bailout money, business can't get credit to innovate. Go back 50 steps. Yellow card.
Well, by now you've learned you can't ever finish this game. That's okay. Just keep on playing it over and over again. It might just sink it. You too parents.
Wall Street Jungle
Come on kids and play this game. You don't have anything better to do now anyways. They have repossessed your TV, computer, car and home. That's the beauty of this game. You can play it in your tent you are now living in. Just spread it out on the dirt floor and learn lots of stuff you never knew before! Adults you can join in too if your brains are still working.
Games pieces 100 moves Begin at space#1: Begin Financial Meltdown
Donkeys End at space#100: Rebuilt Financial Institutions
Elephants
Take turns picking cards to get to the final space on the board. Here are some unique highlights of this game. You can actually win in two moves if you select these two cards:
Execs stop raiding their companies to get salaries greater than their earnings. Go forward 50 spaces.
Government refuses to allow the same people who created the meltdown to fix it. Go forward 50 spaces.
You can also lose big time if you select the following cards:
We got all the money. Go back 50 steps.
Work at Goldman Sachs. Go back 50 steps. Identical cards.
Work at Lehman Brothers. Go back 50 steps. Identical cards.
Bush administration stops laws regulating trading. Go back 50 steps.
Excessively high salary puts company at risk. Go back 50 steps.
You buy futures in oil and cause gas prices to explode. Go back 50 steps. Identical card colors.
To make a profit, you tell the public we are running out of oil. Go back 50 steps. Identical card colors.
Business refuses innovation, no one wants their products. Go back 50 steps. Yellow card.
Banks refuse to loan out bailout money, business can't get credit to innovate. Go back 50 steps. Yellow card.
Well, by now you've learned you can't ever finish this game. That's okay. Just keep on playing it over and over again. It might just sink it. You too parents.
Monday, September 21, 2009
The Butterfly, the Flower and the Gecko
I'm surrounded by lots of interesting critters where I live. Been looking out my window at a butterfly flitting, flirting with a flower and could feel its excitement as it pulled the nectar from a group of wildflowers. The gecko just crawled across my living room floor; yes, I don't mind sharing my dwelling with these rather sweet lizards. It seemed a little nervous as I approached it and just kept on going at a, I thought, rather leisurely pace. I like that I get invited into their world for my viewing pleasure. Don't really know how they feel about me.
While my cat was alive there was so much wildlife activity outside the house. The squirrels were always yakking at the cat, taunting it and scurrying around on the roof, up the trees, jumping from one area to another. I swear this one squirrel would be hanging out on the tree right where my cat would lay and squawk at it every day. My cat would just seem to tolerate it.
While my cat was alive there were several cardinals that hung out around the house. I can't for the life of me figure out why they were around while my cat was around. One of them, a bright red male, would fly right into a mirror I have posted on an outside wall. He would fly into it everyday. First he would zoom by it, then go flap his wings at 90 miles an hour right in front of it before he would crash right into it, then fly away. He repeated this so many times it became almost ordinary if it wasn't so strange.
I was really disturbed most by the squirrels as they would run on the roof of my bedroom constantly. This went on for a really long time. The strange thing now with my cat having gone to the Great Land where deceased cats go, is the lack of activity around the house. It's been two months since my cat hasn't been hanging outside the house anymore. That's long enough to see that something has definitely changed. No more critter activity.
I didn't notice it at first, of course, missing my cat hanging around. One day recently I looked outside and listened. There were no squirrels. There were no cardinals. It was kind of spooky.
It was so noticeable! I asked my assistant if she noticed it. She said she had seen a lot of squirrels down the road. That got me to thinking that maybe they went looking for another cat to hang out with.
Then I started really thinking. Was all this wildlife just here for my cat? Did he attract it into his world because that's his reality? I do believe that we are co-creators in this world building our own life with visions and actions. I never thought of my cat perhaps doing the same. At least I never saw the physical environment of a cat's life change like that before.
I'm keeping a close eye out for those squirrels. If they come back, there might be a stray cat around. There were three deer in our field yesterday. Wonder what that's all about?
While my cat was alive there was so much wildlife activity outside the house. The squirrels were always yakking at the cat, taunting it and scurrying around on the roof, up the trees, jumping from one area to another. I swear this one squirrel would be hanging out on the tree right where my cat would lay and squawk at it every day. My cat would just seem to tolerate it.
While my cat was alive there were several cardinals that hung out around the house. I can't for the life of me figure out why they were around while my cat was around. One of them, a bright red male, would fly right into a mirror I have posted on an outside wall. He would fly into it everyday. First he would zoom by it, then go flap his wings at 90 miles an hour right in front of it before he would crash right into it, then fly away. He repeated this so many times it became almost ordinary if it wasn't so strange.
I was really disturbed most by the squirrels as they would run on the roof of my bedroom constantly. This went on for a really long time. The strange thing now with my cat having gone to the Great Land where deceased cats go, is the lack of activity around the house. It's been two months since my cat hasn't been hanging outside the house anymore. That's long enough to see that something has definitely changed. No more critter activity.
I didn't notice it at first, of course, missing my cat hanging around. One day recently I looked outside and listened. There were no squirrels. There were no cardinals. It was kind of spooky.
It was so noticeable! I asked my assistant if she noticed it. She said she had seen a lot of squirrels down the road. That got me to thinking that maybe they went looking for another cat to hang out with.
Then I started really thinking. Was all this wildlife just here for my cat? Did he attract it into his world because that's his reality? I do believe that we are co-creators in this world building our own life with visions and actions. I never thought of my cat perhaps doing the same. At least I never saw the physical environment of a cat's life change like that before.
I'm keeping a close eye out for those squirrels. If they come back, there might be a stray cat around. There were three deer in our field yesterday. Wonder what that's all about?
Monday, September 7, 2009
It's Tuesday, I'm happy, I'm 60!
If I had thought I could say that 30 years ago or even 20 years ago, it would have saved me a lot of worry! I am so happy to announce that getting older is terribly enjoyable and I wish all of you who read this as much fun when you get old! Here are the myths that I now can say with my life have been totally busted:
Your brain will go to mush
You won't be able to move
You will lose interest in sex
You will let her hair go natural
You will start wearing 'mature lady' clothes
You will stop exercising
You won't be able to see
You won't be able to hear
You won't be able to drive
Your shoes will be comfortable but ugly
You will stop working
You will stop wanting to explore new ideas
You will not be able to start a new career
Okay, you get the picture. Life doesn't end at 59. It's hard to see into the future when you are young. 60 looks a long way off. 80 looks a long way off for me right now. And I know that many things can happen between now and then. I know that many people don't make it to 60. But the life expectancy is increasing. We have more assistance to prolong life. I'm all for it!
Life is great! Get out and feel it! Jump around a little bit sometimes! Sing your favorite song in the grocery store! Why not?! Who cares?! Give a friendly smile to someone who might need to know that someone cares. Let your love shine out! Be happy! Appreciate what you have! and keep on dreaming the big ones!
Your brain will go to mush
You won't be able to move
You will lose interest in sex
You will let her hair go natural
You will start wearing 'mature lady' clothes
You will stop exercising
You won't be able to see
You won't be able to hear
You won't be able to drive
Your shoes will be comfortable but ugly
You will stop working
You will stop wanting to explore new ideas
You will not be able to start a new career
Okay, you get the picture. Life doesn't end at 59. It's hard to see into the future when you are young. 60 looks a long way off. 80 looks a long way off for me right now. And I know that many things can happen between now and then. I know that many people don't make it to 60. But the life expectancy is increasing. We have more assistance to prolong life. I'm all for it!
Life is great! Get out and feel it! Jump around a little bit sometimes! Sing your favorite song in the grocery store! Why not?! Who cares?! Give a friendly smile to someone who might need to know that someone cares. Let your love shine out! Be happy! Appreciate what you have! and keep on dreaming the big ones!
Friday, July 31, 2009
The Future is Now for health insurance reform
How does everyone like being defined by the media? I find it rather reprehensible that I keep on seeing : "The American people want this, the American people don't want that, the American people don't like the health care plan!"
I really think the darker forces are in fighting so hard to stay in control, they keep on making this stuff up. The insurance companies don't want to be reigned in even though they make billions in profits! How much profit do you have to make before the original intent of what your business is all about shrivels up and dies?! The intent being to provide health care coverage to Americans.
I suspect they are just plain scared. But they better get over it. Because we elected a leader who will be tough for us. We have to do our part and communicate to our representatives forcefully, "you will be out of office if you don't deliver."
I bet if you asked any one person the following questions they would know at least one person, family or friend, who fit the description:
1. Inability to pay for coverage.
2. Preexisting condition.
3. Billing problems and/or unwillingness to listen to customer.
4. Can't carry insurance to next job.
5. Can't carry insurance to new home in other state.
6. Won't cover certain claims.
7. Takes a really long time to process your claim.
8. Won't pay because you didn't ask for permission to go to that hospital when faced with an emergency.
9. Wonder why you were billed $30 for a box of bandaids.
10. Wonder why you had to take three tests that all said the same thing and were charged for each one.
Insurance companies get it together. It is seeming like this is the era for Vampire Capitalism, as Dylan Rattigan calls it, to come to an end. Maybe kicking and screaming, but it is ending. How much do you want to salvage your companies from total destruction by the coming rage of the American people. It's better to just chip off most of the bad stuff and settle for $4 billion profit instead of $30. Don't you think?
I really think the darker forces are in fighting so hard to stay in control, they keep on making this stuff up. The insurance companies don't want to be reigned in even though they make billions in profits! How much profit do you have to make before the original intent of what your business is all about shrivels up and dies?! The intent being to provide health care coverage to Americans.
I suspect they are just plain scared. But they better get over it. Because we elected a leader who will be tough for us. We have to do our part and communicate to our representatives forcefully, "you will be out of office if you don't deliver."
I bet if you asked any one person the following questions they would know at least one person, family or friend, who fit the description:
1. Inability to pay for coverage.
2. Preexisting condition.
3. Billing problems and/or unwillingness to listen to customer.
4. Can't carry insurance to next job.
5. Can't carry insurance to new home in other state.
6. Won't cover certain claims.
7. Takes a really long time to process your claim.
8. Won't pay because you didn't ask for permission to go to that hospital when faced with an emergency.
9. Wonder why you were billed $30 for a box of bandaids.
10. Wonder why you had to take three tests that all said the same thing and were charged for each one.
Insurance companies get it together. It is seeming like this is the era for Vampire Capitalism, as Dylan Rattigan calls it, to come to an end. Maybe kicking and screaming, but it is ending. How much do you want to salvage your companies from total destruction by the coming rage of the American people. It's better to just chip off most of the bad stuff and settle for $4 billion profit instead of $30. Don't you think?
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